A Shattered Mirror Reflects A Shattered Heart

broken_dancer @ 2008-08-11T19:45:00

2008-08-12T02:09:25Z

I don't know how to explain this guy... when we talk on the phone I can't force the smile off my face, even when were both venting about or lives, I feel giddy. Maybe its having another person to talk to, maybe its knowing that he truly does understand what I feel like. I dunno.

Were very alike personality wise, the way we handle situations and the way we are with other people is very similar. Were both Colorado babes and are completely content staying here forever because this is home. were both fairly shy, We both love kids (lol he has to seeing as he has one.) its just odd I do feel some kind of connection with the guy whatever that means.

Heh, we both have no money so he told me he just wants to snatch me up sometime this week to go be veggies and watch movies at his place. (yeah he has his own place no parents house lol that is exciting in itself to me).

Were still getting to know each other but its exciting.

on the other hand I still feel kind of bad, even though I know there is no reason why I should. I guess despite everything thing thats happened between us and all the pain I have felt these past few weeks I just.. don't want to hurt Morgan. But I deserve to find happiness too. Supid life.

I am excited to get to hang out with mike this week.

Frick

2008-08-10T04:11:02Z

I think I'm gonna like him... this sucks, in a good way but at the same time, oh no...

lost

2008-08-10T02:39:23Z

life is odd, it seems to venture in a giant circle. I have just been though one of the truly worst experences in my lifetime and now I am finally healing. Just yesterday I had a myspace conversation with a boy I have known for a while, but we never really got to know each other and I am freaking out. there is no guarantee that this guy is going to be anything with me and yet i can't help but get this fluttery nervous feeling when I think about him and it freaks me out.

I don't think I am ready for this, I still love morgan, more than anything. I don't think I am ready to be over him. I'm scared because if I do ever start to like this guy it will mean I'll have to stop loving morgan and that hurts just about as much as anything.

I don't know what to do, and I know I am being stupid. the decision to be apart was his, I can't change it and its ridiculous to try to hold onto someone who was so willing to let me go.

I'm lost

broken_dancer @ 2007-02-17T00:37:00

2007-02-17T06:37:15Z

I never know what to say to someone when their friend has committed suicide.. I mean what is there you can really say. There's nothing that can be done to change what happend and yet you still want to be there for them in their time of need.

I guess its especially hard when the your friend was the one helping the suicidal person through their tough time. and in the night your friend left the state they killed themself...

I think alot of my problem is that I don't understand suicide I cant except it. I just don't know. I am stuck.

rare

2007-02-16T07:07:46Z

its strange how rarely I visit Lj anymore stupid myspace right?
I donno I just feel like I rarely have anything important or interesting to say. I still don't ha!

Been let down again byt hey whats new. Jack is a total jerk and right now I very much hate him and I hate that I hate him. but what can you do.

I did meet someone though and he seems to be not shit so thats exciting. He left for a long weekend to london though ( has to tie up some loose ends, as he was living there for the past few months) Its strange how everytime I meet someone new they leave shortly after I meet them. Jack went to texas for a week Zach went to Kansas and now Morgan is in London gah! lets just hope this .. whatever it is dosn't end like any other past relationship I have tried for, Its rare to like a boy born in italy who has basically explored the world before the age of 20. yeah.. this should be intersting.. hmm

broken_dancer @ 2006-09-07T13:04:00

2006-09-07T19:06:08Z

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broken_dancer @ 2006-09-05T03:19:00

2006-09-05T09:20:43Z

romance movies piss me off tonight.

broken_dancer @ 2006-08-27T23:24:00

2006-08-28T05:52:18Z

My life is crazy O.o just got semi let down by yet another guy. but ya know what, this time it didn't hurt as badly. he was nice about everything and made me feel like I truely was going to find the guy for me even if it wasn't him.

Regardless you all should come down to denver on september 4th to come see my friends band Dread Pirate Roberts, they seriously rock and you should come check em out ^.^ and hang out with me up in the balcony :)

broken_dancer @ 2006-08-05T22:58:00

2006-08-06T04:59:52Z

life is back to being same ol same ol. no boy for jamie oh well
"this isn't the life I orderd"

broken_dancer @ 2006-07-31T11:20:00

2006-07-31T17:22:18Z

yeah so guy i like came to the show with another girl. ( of course it was a skinny blonde model looking thing) gah! whyyy dose this ALWAYS happen to me...??

broken_dancer @ 2006-07-30T11:35:00

2006-07-30T17:42:40Z

So the one guy i have liked from a far for the longest time kissed me last frieday (21st) ( and asorted other things.. *cough*) :) but now I am worried because i don't know what to do. Think havent been awkward between us or anything in fact it seems as though things have hardly even changed at all. he seems a little bit nicer than he was before but on thw whole we haven't really taked about anything yet.

and whats worse is he just got out of a relationship and i am not to sure he wants to be another one. and everything i know about him tells me he wouldn't be the kind of guy who would just do ya and leave ya.. and i don't want him to be that guy either seeing as how that seems to be the only guts I can find anymore..

I really like him though and have for a long time, he knows I like him.. gah1 i just don't know what to doI think I need to talk to him when I see him tonight but I am not sure how to start it.. HELP!

~ <3 Jamie

on a positive note Dread Pirate Roberts tonight at the Gothic! whoot!!!

are you willing to share my C!!!!

2006-07-20T22:16:25Z

( Jamie says- shows i've SEEN on video I put a MV net to it.)

(X) If you have heard of the show
(CD) If you own/listen to the CD
(SEEN) If you have seen the show. If you’ve seen it more than once write the number after SEEN
(“Your Part”) If you have been in it (put your particular part)

Leave it BLANK if none of the options apply…

Be HONEST. Not very many people have ever heard of the show “Flora the Red Menace.” Don’t get down to the results and see you’re only 5 away from being a “Musical Theater Master” and change a few of your answers! Just own up, and if you want, make yourself more knowledgeable. Go listen to the ones you haven’t heard of…Now the Quiz.

Avenue Q - X, CD

Chicago - X, CD, SEEN

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang - X, SEEN MV

Fiddler on the Roof - X,

Lestat -

Beauty and the Beast - X, CD, SEEN

Dirty Rotten Scoundrels -

Hairspray - X,

Mamma Mia - X

Sweeney Todd -X

The Color Purple - X

The Light in the Piazza -

The Pajama Game - X

The Producers - X, CD, SEEN MV

Movin’ Out - X

Rent - X, CD, SEEN

Spamalot – X

Sweet Charity - X

The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee -

The Lion King – X,

The Phantom of the Opera - X, CD

The Threepenny Opera -

The Woman in White -

Little Shop of Horrors - X, CD, SEEN

Wicked - X, CD, SEEN

Annie - X, SEEN

Joseph and the Amazing Tecnicolor Dream Coat - X, SEEN (x2)

Sunday in the Park With George -

Into the Woods – X, CD, SEEN

Jersey Boys - X

In My Life -

Ring of Fire-

42nd Street - X

Brigadoon – X,SEEN

Cabaret – X, SEEN

Carousel - X

Cats – X, CD, SEEN

Chess – X,

A Chorus Line – X, SEEN MV

Evita - X

The Full Monty - X

Grease - X, CD, SEEN (FRENCHY)

Guys and Dolls - X, CD, SEEN (CHOURS)

Jekyll and Hyde - X

Jesus Christ Superstar - X, CD,

Loot -

Oklahoma - X >:(

My Fair Lady - X

Nunsense -

Rocky Horror Show - X, SEEN MV

Seussical - X

South Pacific - X,

Stomp - X

Fosse - X

Blast -

Sweet Smell of Success -

How To Succeed in Business Without Really Trying - X

Working -

The Who’s Tommy -

Victor/Victoria - X, SEEN MV

West Side Story - X, SEEN

La Boheme - X

The Wizard of Oz – X, SEEN MV

The Wiz - X

Wonderful Town - X

You’re a Good Man Charlie Brown - X, CD , SEEN

Les Miserables - X, CD, SEEN (x3)

Oliver! - X

Pippin – X, SEEN

Pirates of Penzance - X

Tick Tick Boom - X

The Boy From Oz – X

Gypsy - X

Thoroughly Modern Millie -X

Altar Boyz -

Annie Get Your Gun – X, SEEN, (CHOURS)

Anything Goes - X

Aspects of Love -

Assassins -

Barnum -

Big - X

Bombay Dreams -

Bye Bye Birdie - X

Hair - X

1776 –

Footloose – X, CD

Once Upon a Mattress – X

Allegro -

Camelot - X

Children of Eden -

Cinderella - X

Damn Yankees - X

Dreamgirls -

Fame - X, SEEN MV

The Fantasticks -

Flora the Red Menace -

Flower Drum Song -

On the Town - X,

Follies - X

On a Clear Day You Can See Forever -

Nine -

The Music Man - X, (SEENxMILLION! GAH!!!)

The Most Happy Fella -

Miss Saigon - X, SEEN

Man of La Mancha -

Mame - X

Kiss Me Kate - X SEEN MV

The King and I - X

Irene-

I Love You, You’re Perfect, Now Change - X,

A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum - X

Parade -

Peter Pan – X, SEEN, (TIGER LILY)

Ragtime - X

Riverdance – X

Saturday Night Fever - X

Smokey Joe’s Cafe -

Showboat - X

The Sound of Music - X

The Secret Garden - X

Ruthless! -

Sunset Blvd -X

Swing - X

Taboo - X

Titanic - X

Triumph of Love -

The Wild Party –

The Scarlet Pimpernel -

Company -

Contact -

No, No Nanette -

Hedwig and the Angry Inch - X

High Society-

Kiss of the Spiderwoman -

A Little Night Music -

Urinetown - X

All Shook Up - X

Now count the number of answers you left blank to find your grade:
0-9 ----A+---- Your are the Musical Theater Master!!! We all bow down to you!!!!

10-22 ----A---- Great!!! You really know your stuff! Now you’ll go and listen to the ones you didn’t mark to find out what you’re missing… Don’t deny it, you know you were going to do that even before you got down to the results!

23-34 ----B---- Pretty Good!!! You are on your way up to being a bonifide Musical Theater know-it-all, now go out and see what you’re missing!

[ I Got 39]35-46 ----C---- Average. You know of Musical Theater, but perhaps it’s not your specialty. If you want to become a Master, just go and look into the shows you didn’t check off, most of them are worth looking into.

47-58 ----D---- Boo!!! Go look into the shows you don’t know!! I know you mean well, but really, the “Popular” shows aren’t the only ones out there! Go look into some of the less-popular ones, you won’t regret it.

59 and Over----F!---- Why did you take this Quiz? Were you bored? Have you ever even heard of showtunes?! It’s ok. Go to Yahoo music and listen to a few soundtracks you may like what you hear.

broken_dancer @ 2006-06-04T10:36:00

2006-06-04T16:38:07Z

I always forget I have one of these o.O ... ^.^

do you ever find yourself saying "i'm tired" even when your not really tired? I realized I do that alot..

.... :P

broken_dancer @ 2006-04-04T09:55:00

2006-04-04T15:56:15Z

*pissy and moany*

do you know the utter hatred of an ex who throws there current sex life in your face?

broken_dancer @ 2006-03-21T22:08:00

2006-03-22T05:08:49Z

i wish i had something to write about but I think i wrote it all out yesterday lol

broken_dancer @ 2006-03-14T11:30:00

2006-03-14T18:30:50Z

jacks is not coming over.. he is going to give me time to think like he said he would. ~.~ I hope I am not wrong about this.

broken_dancer @ 2006-03-13T12:51:00

2006-03-13T19:59:07Z

jack is coming up to see me tomorrow... this sucks because i had plans and now i have to tottaly change my whole week around because he decided to come and surprise me.. >.

broken_dancer @ 2006-03-11T21:54:00

2006-03-12T05:02:21Z

what do you do when you don't know if you love someone anymore... and think you may like someone else.. is it worth it to let go and try something new or do you stay with the person who you know loves you..
I guess I am just worried that I am not as happy as I use to be with him and I don't want to live a life with him if i am not 100% sure is the one for me.
Right now I guess I just need time to think
ehh life sucks

broken_dancer @ 2006-03-07T19:13:00

2006-03-08T02:14:10Z

lol havent been on lj in forever don't you hate it when myspace stops working XD

broken_dancer @ 2006-01-23T21:07:00

2006-01-24T04:08:02Z

Your 2005 Song Is

Hung Up by Madonna

"Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you"

You'll be rockin' in the New Year in your croch-o-tard!

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

I am a looser

2006-01-24T04:00:27Z

P E O P L E]

1. Best friends of 2005? Jack, Shantel

2. Best boyfriend/girlfriend? The love of my life Jack

3. Lost any friends? I feel like I lost a bunch

4. Gained any friends? Jack The boys Alex, Chris, Jason, Steve, Tom

5. Met new good friends? Jack etc.. same as above

[P L A C E S]

1. Went out of the country? nope
2. Moved? twice

3. New school? Westwood

4. How many times on an airplane? twice

5. Road trips? not really Jack and I did end up in wyoming on accedent though

[Y O U]

1. Have you changed?: Yes and No I am still me but at the same time I feel as though I have grown up alot. I am a better person now who has found true happyness.

2. New look? the Jamie look

3. Any new additions? same ol same ol

4. Biggest conflict this year? Moving on with my life

5. Most depressed time this year? December when Jack went to texas

[L O V E]

1. Did you fall in love? I think i did

2. Did you get heartbroken? Yeah

3. Who was your summer love? Jack <3

5. Favorite date? Jack and i's first I will never forget that day

6. With who? <3

[S E A S O N S]

1. Favorite Season? summer

2. Least favorite season? Winter :(

4. Highest temperature? = swimin in the pool fun ^.^

[F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S]

Snuck out- Why?

Met a person who will change your life- everyone has

Kept your resolution- lol

Got arrested- No

Had a first something- A first love ( i am so sappy) lol

Drank Alcohol- on occasion

Smoked weed/drugs- nah

Did anything illegal- Don't think so

Kissed a boy/girl- yes

Had a crush- just one

Liked someone who didn't like you- nope i am to desireable ^.~

Lost a family member-Yes

Got suspended-no

Moved states- no

Got a myspace- had one since 04

Started a band- bah

Spent over 1 million dollars- if i had a million dollars!

Done something you shouldn't have- probably

Kept a secret- Yes

Told a secret- my secret

Done something you totally regret- Forget Regret

broken_dancer @ 2006-01-02T00:22:00

2006-01-02T07:32:09Z

My first new years with a boyfriend and he is thousand of miles away how sad for me I suppose i will just have to wait until next year hopefully it will make it sweeter. I'm sad that valentines day will be just the same my love will be so far away from me I will just have to suck it up and go deal with it. It could always be worse right ^.^
We love each other and I guess thats all I need.

I'm going nuts @.@

buying a digital camera tomorrow, starting my new job on tuesday, work thursday and start school friday also have a wedding to attend and saturday its little shop then its just work1 work 2 and school for the rest of my life.. well at least till march when i get to see my baby ^.^!!!
Ah such is life

broken_dancer @ 2005-12-31T20:54:00

2006-01-01T03:54:06Z

look ange i am updateing just for you

Happy New Years everybody! Heres a toast to this year being a hell of a lot better than the last ^.^

i think i want to perm my hair...hmm

broken_dancer @ 2005-11-13T21:50:00

2005-11-14T04:50:58Z

Clay Aiken on wendsday Neeeee!!!

Ehh Homework >.<
but Yay Claykin!

boo you whore!

2005-10-05T17:51:50Z

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